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January 2012
my boyfriend wants to know why i dislike being horney..
He just doesnt understand! I dont wanna be horney, because I dont want you mad at me, because i want to do more.
You know if you just were like i wanna have sex… It be sooo differnt id be differnt, and we wouldnt be having this fight. instead of me feeling like you were going to yell at me everytime i wanted it ( or not trust me )
So now, he wants to be fken supper squeaky clean again, in a round about way..
Girls, Help! ?
How do I avoid wanting to have sex, when im supper horney ( he always get me horney! ) ?
how come 1500 calories.. are so much, healithy food, but so little junk?
When my gpa goes to bed, ima clean my room (: and maybe the living room too.
yay extra calories are going to be burned! :D
way better so far today!
Breakfist : Half a bowl of cherrios? - 100
Lunch : Sandwitch on flatt wheet bread ( 2 turkey - 80 1 cheese - 40 1 wheet bagel ((flatt )) 120 Musterd and lettice - 3 ) -243
Dinner : Hungry man chicken t.v dinner its like 1000 calories.. but i didnt eat the brownie, i had a bite of mashd potatos, and didnt eat most of the skin, and made green beens with it ( 40 caloreis ) .. So like 700?
So far : I walked my dog for 15 minutes? Like 50 calories burned?
Net so far : 993 out of 1500-2000
REALLY?! 500 more calories, thats another meal -.- maybe ill have some lettice tonight, but i kinda want some pizza or something, since its new years and im home alone.. Hmmmphppph! ( pizza is like 400 calories )
Tonight, i plan on doing 100 crunches… 200 jumping jacks… 30 push ups.. and like jog in place as fast as i can for as long as i can.. and probley stretch.. a good half a hour work out. ( maybe burn like 250? )
- So if i have that pizza and work out ill have -
1143 -.- ( still in wtf mode )
-If i just do the workout and skip on the pizza ill have -
a net of 743…
Weight:
158.8
December 2011
If i burn, 500 calories on the eleptical, and manage to do some killer stength traning maybe i can ignore the
small peice of cake..
Mnms. - 30
choclet - 150
chips and cheese -350
So 530 calorie accident today, has to be the last!
And focus more on what i did havae before i ruined it (:
Celary - 5
hummus -50
carrots -20
apples - 50
pamagrante-20
orenge-50
breakfist sand witch and corn beef hash - 400
595
So leaving my total at 595 good calories, 530 bad calories and 600+ of working out to do..
HOW THE HELL DOES THAT STILL PUT MY UNDER 1500 -.-
so difficult..
Ive gained 6 pounds this month..
6 pounds! and im going to the gym..
Officaly 160 again... 135 is so far from me now, ..
I sound like such a differnt person here: So confident?
What makes me stand out from other applicants is my determination and my attitude. Im so determined, if my mind is set to complete something, or to do something I always complete it. For instance, ive handled 15 classes between my freshman and sophomore year, and have gotten straight A’s, I think that makes me a amazing candidate to be in your school, because I work hard, and I can handle anything people throw at me.
Breakfist :
Egg sandwitch and hash browns… ?
380 ?
Ugh, stuffed.
This shall hold me for awhile, then ill snack on some carrots (:
If anyone thought homeschooling was easy, i have to get this done by January 9th
Chemistry
10.02 All about the Periodic Table due 11/11/11
11.02 World Of Chemistry” Periodic Table Video due 11/18/11
12.03 Ionic Bond gizmo due 11/25/11
13.02 Covalent Bonds Gizmo due 12/2/11
Science Proficiency Prep Q2 Week 4 due 12/9/11
14.01World of Chemistry-Chemical Bonds due 12/09/11
14.02 Chemistry Jeopardy due 12/09/11
Science Proficiency Prep Q2 Week 5 due 12/16/11
15.01 Vocabulary Balancing Chemical Equations due 12/16/11
15.02 BrainPOP Chemical Equations due 12/16/11
15..03 Types of Reactions due 12/16/11
15.04 Balancing Equations GIZMO due 12/16/11
Spanish
12.03 ser and estar
Numbers and ser and estar review
13.01 irregular verbs 1
Review of irregula verbs in past tense
14.01 direct object lo/la 1 (due Dec16)
14.02 direct object los/las 2 (due Dec 16)
14.03 double verbs with direct object 3 (due Dec 16)
11.02 verbs with yo form change (due Nov 21)
10.03 preterite ‘ir’ (due Nov 14)
English
Quiz on Objective Case Pronouns due Dec. 9
“The Necklace” and “The Gift of the Magi” Paragraph due 11/23Explaining Symbolism in “The Gift of the Magi”
Symbolism in “The Masque of the Red Death”
Explaining Symbolism in “The Masque of the Red Death”
Vocabulary Lesson 11 due Dec. 16
Quiz on Case of Pronouns due Dec. 16
Reading Proficiency Review 6 Due 12/16
Reading a Novel or Non-Fiction Book Due Jan. 6.
DOL Quiz 1
W11 Quick Write Due (11/11)
Story Development: Climax, Falling Action Check in.
W 16 Quick Write -
W16 Vocabulary
4 page essay
World History
3.4 Discussion: Ancient Greece Today (Due 12/2)
4.2 The Roman Empire (Due 12/16)
Bio.
Science Proficiency Prep Q2 Week 4
Vocabulary Quiz genetics 1 (November 11)
Ch 11 DNA
Genetics Punnett Square Fly Lab and Uploadable worksheet
vocabulary quiz heredity
P.e
1
2
Math.
Homework 4.4 (due 11/11)
Homework 4.5 (due 11/11)
Homework 4.6 (due 11/11)
Homework 4.7 (due 11/18)
Homework 4.8 (due 11/18)
Chapter 4 Test-answer sheet
Chapter 4 Project (due 11/18)
Homework 5.1 (due 11/25) -
Homework 5.2 (due 11/25) -
Homework 5.3 (due 11/25) -
Homework 5.4 (due 12/2) -
Homework 5.5 (due 12/2) -
Homework 5.6 (due 12/2) -
Homework 5.7 (due 12/9) -
Homework 5.8 (due 12/9) -
Homework 5.9 (due 12/16) -
Chapter 5 Test-Answer Sheet (due 12/16) -
Homework 6.1 (due 1/6/2012) -
Homework 6.2(due 1/6/2012) -
Homework 6.3 (due 1/6/2012) -
Homework 6.4 (due 1/6/2012) -
Homework 6.5 (due 1/13/2012) -
Homework 6.6(due 1/13/2012) -
Homework 6.7 (due 1/13/2012) -
Chapter 6 Test-answer sheet (due 1/13/2012)
Chapter 6 Project (due 1/13/2012)
Breakfist, was not as well planned as I hoped it be, but its still somewhat good
9:30 - Half a bagel wheet ( 50 cal? ) , 1 egg (100?) Some corn beef ( 200 ) And some ketchup (20 )
370
10:30 … I felt kinda hungry but i didnt wanna eat just yet, and there was a peice of my marshmellow fondent sitting on the couner and i ate that..
( 150 )
10:35 I still didnt feel satistfied, so i ate 1 chip and 2 choclet orenge slices, I guess not that bad .
11 + 50 - 61
581
” New plan “
Lunch : Some strew 1 cup?
About… 400
Snack : Apple
About… 100
Dinner : What ever my grandma makes
About 400
That would place me 1481/ 1500-2000
I'm very happy that you're living a healthy lifestyle, but I just wanted to make one thing clear: Those who starve/binge, their eating habits are not a choice. No one can just wake up one day and "decide" to starve or binge. Actually binge. 1000-2000+ calories-in-one-sitting binge. It's not something anyone with a healthy mind could do if s/he tried. And starving, it's part of having a mental disorder. In reality, such habits aren't even about weight loss. They're about control ... or lack of.
Thank you, for the information.. Yeah I do know, that its something I cant just fix. Because. ive had it my whole life, even before my Pro ana lifestyle. So i mean, i feel like theyve gotten better my binges arnt as many calories as they used to be.. So im just trying to learn to make them smaller.. and make myself not want it. So far its iffy but i definatly feel like in a month, there all ready much differnt. Thanks anon.
Tommrow's eating plan :
Breakfist : Egg sandwitch, on half a bagel with one egg, and some ketchup ( maybe some meat ) NO CHEESE.
About… 170-270
Snack : pamagranate seeds
About 40
Lunch : Some strew 1 cup?
About… 400
Snack : Apple
About… 100
Snack : Orenge
About… 100
Gym : 50 leg ups lol? ( 50 pounds ) - burn 200 calories on eliptical ( thingy ) Stretch for 15. and random arm and leg and ab stuff : )
Dinner : What ever my grandma makes
About 400
Snack: 15 m&ms
50
1390-1500
This is why I need to try to eat healthy vs starving vs over eating.
1. I choose healthy eating over starving because, Starving… Kills you.. I dont think i relized it til just recently.. the people look dead? I want to stay life like, happy, and very proud of who i am.. and having a eating disorder makes me the oppisite.
2. I choose healthy eating over binging, Because I feel unheathly i feel sick, i feel tired, and slugish, and i feel bloated alot.. and it just sucks i cant eat normal…
So I reamber how hard it was to eat under 500 that first few times, and when i did it, it stuck..
So this shall be the same!! Itll be hard, But going to the gym, having fruits and vegies should help..
Thank you guys, for listning to my rant :)
Healthy weight loss blogg.
From now on, i am going to be eating a healthy and exercising healthy unfollow me if you dont like it (:
Follow me if you want to see my journey to overcome ednos, to stop overeating and to cut sugar from my diet. ( well most :) )
Tomrrow starts it..
Tomrrow, will make my future… I know I can do this
Day one letter ( to myself ) : A, you can do this. I know you can. you can prove everyone wrong. You can be happy in your own skin.. You can shine threw people by more then just your smile. You can go to new york, you can buy size 0’s in expensive clothing. You can be blown away. You will make people proud, you can do this, you can be happy.
You can, you just need to try, and everyones rooting you on.
Go on babe, Get your dream acomplished.
Love, The person who knows you can do it.
<3 Marry mmee. Today and everyday. Marry me! If i ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe.
E, Please marry me.. Tomrrow <3 And every day <3
Tomrrow will be a planed binge at a steak house? o-o - BUFFET OH YEAH -
Okay anyway, Should I fast and exercise off as much as I can.. will that make me not gain..
i looked in the mirrioor„ My tumy is so much larger.. 1 inch to be exact.. HOW THE HELL IS MY MEASUREMENTS AND MY WEIGHT GOING UP!?
Wait .. Sarcastic FAT bitch.
Im so carving fat bitch on me tonight.
im a sarcastic bitch
my mind runs in the background of every word!
No one ever understands.. see?! they take that one word!
FUCCKKKKKKKKKK K!!!!
But.. you did mention it!
Sometimes I just feel like E never understands me
Sometimes I feel like E is out to get me..
Sometimes I feel like E will hurt me more then ill ever hurt myself..
Sometimes I telll myself itll be okay when he says something he doesnt like but truly I just want to cut
I want to cut.. I want to cut because hes perfect. . .
Why dont I make sence…
I tried not to take my medication. I tried to be skinny, pretend to recover. But, lying to my friends is hurting more and more, I can't stand it.
I seem to get fatter. Just another week and I’ll be “fine”.
Radiohead speaks to me…
<3
I really love your blog. Yes, I'm your boyfriend so it doesn't mean as much as an anon, but oh well :)
Hehe! YOU MADE ME GIGGLE! X) and, of corse it does. I love youu !!! And i love your blogg too
EVERYONE FALLOW THIS KID!
his blogs fantastic <3 lol :)
Thanks for the follow. Your theme is awesome, btw! Happy losing!
Thanks <3 :) I really like it so much too! :)
You too xoxo! <3
931) When I become a mother, I'll make sure I NEVER comment about my daughter's weight. The last thing I want is to make my future child as fucked up as I am...